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Thirteen days and thirteen nights.  This month is moving fast.  Its almost over...and it seems like it just begun.

As I sit here I wonder....  do folks ever think before they act???  or has it gotten to a point...where....folks don't give a shit anymore?

Someone calls Me at 3 in the morning.  I don't answer..cause...its 3 in the morning and it ain't family...so back to sleep I go.

Twenty minutes later....  they call back.

Seriously????  I answer and remind them of the time..and they say...

I "thought" you'd be up.  Thought????  THOUGHT???  

At 3 in the fuckin morning....you need to KNOW. Hahahaha.

I don't know....it just seems....  inconsiderate...to Me.  I'm sure others wouldn't give a shit...but I have this major issue with....respect.

I kinda....want it.  Demand it.  Ummm..."require" it.

In other news....  In order to do minor chores...I gotta pop pills now.  Last night....  just to get to sleep...I had to pop a pill.  Life...has become one big....Pill.

I had a dream that I had sex.   It was like....real.  I mean...really real.  The feeling..the scent.  The bullshit afterwards. hahaha.  Then...I woke up and I was fuckin pissed.  Cause...I really thought I was in some pussy.

Reality...sucks. hahaha

I made a baked potato last night. Hadn't done one of those in a long time.  That was the best baked tater.  Butter and Cheddar cheese.  Heaven...simple...tasty...heaven.

Since My conversion....  I haven't cussed anyone out.  Not that I miss it or anything like that.  I have noticed that folks do react different when you don't go the fuck off.  Now...if I could curb My anger a tad bit more....

I will be....a new Man.  But that...is gonna be hard...cause I'm a bit too outspoken to just.....tame my tongue.

I want some pussy.  Some random..nameless...obscure...pussy.  Someone who is into rough....painful....controlling....sex.  I want to take the belt off the wall...and apply it to some ass.  Pull some hair.  Twist some nipples.  And.....choke.  Ahhhhh....I want to feel a neck in my hand....and choke em till eyes roll back in head...and body starts to......shake...in fear.

Whewwww....

gotta get some coffee now.

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