I DON'T WEAR A CAPE

I ain't Superman. The Hulk. A piece of Granite. A Rock.

I'm a fuckin Man and believe it or not.... I have My bad days.  I have shit in My life.  I have moments that I wanna fuckin give up.

Maybe its because I rarely show that side...

But best believe...I am no different from the next person.

So....when I do blog on My feelings...it amazes Me how folks can just tell Me to .... do this or do that...when ya know damn well...it ain't that fuckin easy.  Just like they go thru shit...they trip off shit. ...they  have sleepless nights or moments of doubt....

So do I.

And...if someone does screw Me or do Me wrong...it ain't that easy to just...dismiss them. 

If there is a situation in My life that's crazy...its not that easy to just....get over it.

Like..back when My Father passed...all those folks saying .."its gonna be alright"...but they hadn't lost a Parent...so...how the fuck can they even say that??? It didn't get..alright.  It still isn't...alright.  My Father is Dead...soooo...It will never ever be...alright.

99% of the time I'm Mr. Inspiration. Mr. Happy. Mr...you can come to Me for advice and I'm there for ya.  Mr. always gotta smile and a good word.

Well...there is that 1% where I....go thru moments of doubt and pain and I have to deal with bullshit in My life.

And usually...I keep that shit to Myself..

but when I do blog or speak on it...

that's because...its become so hard to deal with...I need a outlet.

And right now.....

I'm like.....

really fucked up in the head.

no matter how I try to....think positive and be strong and....let this go...and....see the bright side....

I still think about the situation at hand....

and I get scared. I get nervous. I get.......depressed.

cause....

I'm fuckin human.

and I can't help it.

thats how it is.

I ain't Superman

and...

I don't wear a cape.