THE LAST DAY OF 2011

The last day of 2011 was a day that was ALL Emanuel.

Coffee and coffee cake.  Pizza rolls...and I've been gaming for 7 hrs str8. 

Soooo....goin out this bitch...

Easy like Sunday morning.

Sooooo....

Thank you 2011

Hello 2012

Its been fun

now...

Time to walk the path of 2012

BLANK SPACE....DEAD AIR.

Well...  it's the 30th of December.  This year is almost over. 

Not a whole lot on My mind that is important enough to blog about.

I'm in a much better place today..than I was this time last year...so ....  that shows progress and growth.

I'm really happy with My spiritual growth.  I doubted a few times...  if My conversion to Islam was the right choice.

Well... it wasn't My choice to make. It was made by Allah and anything that is made by him...is correct in all ways.

Anywhozit...  I guess that's it.  If I am blessed to see tomorrow...

I shall complete My Blog a Day for December 2011.

May Allah bring Peace to all who read these words and all who cannot.

Salaam!

THINKING OF ABSRACT PERFECTION

As we go about our daily tasks...We tend to forget that Death is right on our ass.  We are one heart beat away...from performing in our final Play.

And we don't even think about it.  Cause...We don't want to think about the morbid.  We don't want to accept that...we are nothing but flesh and this flesh...is not everlasting.

Our destiny...is to return from where we came.  To...complete the circle. 

Ever wonder why a Baby's first action...is to cry...loud and hard.  Cause...the Soul just told that young Mind...that...

all the learning. all...the falls and stumbles.  all the giving of love and struggling to just...exist....all the growing and all the joys and pains associated with the growth....

will end....without any advance notice.

When that time comes...it comes.  It cares not where you are...or what you are doing.

Death...will do what Death...does.

But we walk around...like Death is on a holiday.  We act as if....we have an eternity to do the things we need to do.

Instead of telling that person you are sorry...you don't.  You'll get to that..."later".

When you should tell them you love them...you decide to ... blow it off...till...another day.

As if...that day is promised.

If you love em.  Tell em.

If you've wronged em...apologize. 

If you treated em like shit...as for forgiveness.

If you haven't hugged em.  Wrap your arms around them and hug them so tight...they wonder...what the fuck is wrong with you.

Cause...it may not be YOU...Death comes for.

Hear Me?

It may be to late..for YOU...to make peace with them...because they...are now....

On the other side...and on a new journey.

Is it that hard....to make peace?

Funny...

We plan for 2012...but it ain't here yet...and Soooooo many who "think" they gonna see it....will be taken from this place....the night before.  The hour before....5mins before....

2012.

The only plans we should ever make...

are the plans to better ourselves...and our souls...for the time we are allowed to walk...this Earth.

Many may read...few will understand...and fewer will.....act.

Honestly...I don't give a shit.

I'm just a messenger.

I've already began to walk My path.

And have begun...the healing of My Soul.

Today...is day

29.

Salaam.

UNSPOKEN SPOKEN (BONUS TRACK)

I don't have to speak.

I don't have to say.

I don't have to spell it out.

I don't have to give you hints.

I don't have to declare... nor do I have to stand on the highest Mountain and yell to the sky.

I don't have to send a song...or a card...

I don't have to tell someone to tell someone to tell you.

I don't have to text..or call...or email.

I don't have to tell yo Momma.

or write a poem

cause...

you should see...when you look deep in My eyes...when I'm holding you close to Me...

that...

I LOVE YOU!!!!

E.c. 28122011

THE LYFE AND TYMES OF A BLACK MAN

Every day I wake in the morn..wondering why I was born.  The struggle is strong. These days and night are lonely and long. 

Working hard to keep afloat...even though I'm still makin payments on My boat. 

People always lookin at Me like I suspect number One.  Can't even put My hands in My pocket on a cold day cause the Law gonna think I'm holdin a gun.

But I keep on....keepin on.  Cause I'm a Black Man...and I'm supposed to be strong.

yeah...right.  it ain't that fuckin easy.

I want that life...where its sunny and breezy...  where life....is slow and easy.

Where I can create a ponzi scam...and get a slap on the wrist by the "Man".  Or..not pay taxes...steal all the companies money and shred the faxes.

Do crime...but not do ...time.

Cause all I gotta do right now...is go to the store....next thing ya know...Cops got Me on the floor.

Better not move...or I'll get shot...and they'll say I had a gun...that I ain't got.

But..that's how it is...in the life of a Black Man.

Despite the pitfalls....I do what I can.

To live just one more day...cause...a brutha got child support to pay.

And even if I die...ya know the government gonna get their money...some way.

Knowledge is the Lock.  Survival is the key.

I know I'm gonna make it...

cause...

GOD is watching over Me.

Even if I'm invisible in the Crowd...

I raise My fist...

cause...

I'm Black

I'm Proud.

Salaam!

E.c. 28122011

BASIC BLOG STUFF

Well....the baby Jesus would have been one day old today.  Absolutely no one....thinks of that.  Am I lyin????


So...now all this wonderful Christmas gift giving is over...some folks are sitting at the dinner table with calculator, paper and pen in hand...and tears...are rolling down cheeks.  Yup...they sure did show out at the gift giving...now they gotta show...they got money to pay for all that...showin out. hahaha


I've come to find that a lot of women out in the world...just don't have faith in Man at all.  No love...no trust...no....nada.  Yet...they desire Us.  And they say Man...is a bit twisted. hahahaha.


Interesting fact:  You can continuously have sex with a person and have no feelings...but...you cannot continuously have sex with a person and NOT...have some emotion.  Oh...marinate on that why don't cha.  And I'm posting this on Twitter for those who can't reach this blog.  Cause...that's some deep shit.


Its amazing how one can become addicted to anothers....scent.  Like...really addicted.  Like...needs to smell them...  Like...can be sitting in traffic and close eyes and inhale and swear fo gawd....ya smell em.  Hmmmm.  sniff sniff.

Why come when you tell a woman how cute and sexy they are....they tell you...."no I'm not".  What the fuck is up with that??  Sooo...now I gotta re-evaluate My compliment cause....if she don't think she cute...maybe...she isn't??? hahaha

Tang.  I want a glass of Tang.

If your Significant other hauled off and spit in your mouth...you'd be pissed...yet...you kiss em...and you actually get turned on.  Maybe it all in the...delivery. hahaha

I'm horny.

I'm hungry.

I'm hungry..cause I'm horny.

But...I don't wanna eat and fuck.

I wanna....

Lick and fuck.

(drops mic....skips off stage)

DEAR JESUS

Dear Jesus:

I hope you don't blame Me for the people kinda forgetting about  you during this time.  Its not My fault.

I am just as confused as you are.  I mean...you...came here and healed folks and taught folks about love..and fed folks with a fish and a loaf of bread.

You made blind folks see.  You make crazy folks sane.  You even...freed folks from the bonds of evil spirits.

And on top of that...you made sure...all their sins were forgiven and they got a new start.

and THENNNN... You were crucified for doing all this for...them.

And they seem to forget about the day of your birth???

Yet..they still embrace Me and all I do is deliver presents...."once" a year.  And most of the time...I don't give em what they want.  And...a lot of them have to go into debt to cover the shit I don't deliver.  And basically...I could give a shit about their salvation or if they love one another.

cause...

I'm in Buttfuck North Pole and none of those fools will ever find My home and I don't have to deal with their sins and crime and other bullshit.

Soooo...I really don't get why they love me so...and they seem to ..... slowly but surely...forget about you.

I guess... they kinda forgot where all these blessings to have all this stuff during this time....comes from.

I am sorry.

FYI..  You still cool with Me..and tell you Dad I said ....Hi.

Signed:

Santa Claus.

THE EVE OF CHRISTMAS EVE

Ahhhh...one more day and its...Christmas.  Not sure what happened to this one...very spiritual day.  The focus isn't on the "original" reason for this holiday.  Now..its all about shopping for deals and giving gifts and....eating good.

The story of the birth of the Savior, Jesus Christ as described in the Book of Matthew in the King James Version of the Holy Bible....  is almost forgotten by most who celebrate....the Holidays.

The Three Wise Men?  gone.  erased from the minds of the masses.

The Star the shined bright in the sky to herald the birth of the baby Jesus.  Well...have you heard anything about it?

Not many have...and not many children are being raised...with this bit of..knowledge.

But...Santa is alive and kickin.  Even though Rudolph kinda got kicked to the curb...the ole Fat Man...is still the Icon for Christmas...or..shall I say...Xmas.

Soooo...here we are again..the eve of the eve of xmas. Folks runnin around in a frenzy trying to get that last minute gift...or get the ingredients for the dinner they will fix and invite the people they really don't like and pretend that all is good.

Cause...

Its XMAS.

or..something like it.

HOT..U ..GOT

The day I saw that sexy ass...

I couldn't let that opportunity pass.  To make a connection. Watching eyes to see if I got your attention.  That thickness kept My attention...and did I mention

you sexy as fuck.


The day I saw that sexy frame...

I had to know the name..of this sexy female that got Me insane.  With lust and desire.  No gasoline needed to start this fire...that had engulfed My soul and mind...

I found something....I didn't think I'd find.


Then I saw you walk My way.

O...my lawd...how those hips did sway.
Back and forth and forth and back.  Its like all that sexiness reached out and gave Me a....

smack!!!!

Then I watched your lips...as we began to converse..

The desire to know you deeper...got worse and worse...and worse. Watching those lips move..like poetry in motion.  I felt as if I just drank a gallon of Love potion.

I was drunk as fuck...off You.

Then...that moment of Bliss...

We shared an unexpected kiss.  I still remember the sweetness of your spit.  All I kept thinking was....

shit...
shit..
shit..

I just stepped into the unknown. 

Mind blown.

I should have known.

The day I saw your sexy ass....

The unreal became real.

The unfeeling...began to feel.

The unfaithful found faith.

The scars of loneliness...disappeared from My face.

Got Me free falling thru time and space.

Don't know what the fuck you did...

I don't want it to stop...

cause that shit you got...

is...

fuckin...HOT.

E.c. 22122011

20 and 21 Two Birds...1 Stone.

Things I fuckin Love:  By Emanuel Chrisentary.

Sunsets.

BBQ.

Her toes.

Playing on My XBOX 360.

Kissing her.

A nice drive on a nice Day.

Shopping...for no damn reason at all.

Talking with My Daughter.

Eating Cool Whip...all by itself.

Hanging out with My Brother.

Coffee...Coffee...Coffeee.

Watching her eat. (its how her lips and mouth move that....moves Me.)

Blogging.

Tweeting (never ever thought I'd fuckin love that)

Islam!

Taking a long..hot shower. ahhhh. yes.

Hugging her.

Waking up and realizing that I am still.... ALIVE.

Cranberry Juice.

Experiencing My nephews quest for....Manhood. hahaha

Knowing that all I know...is...ALL ...I know.

Making Spaghetti...my way.

Coffee..Coffee..Coffee.

and..

I fuckin love My life although sometimes it tests Me beyond My mental limits. I guess its Life's way of keeping Me on My toes and not letting Me get too comfortable and complacent.  Sooo..despite the absolutely crazy bullshit I sometimes have to go thru...and the pain and anger I must endure...and the sleepless nights trying to figure out how to...overcome the situation I'm in without having to go to anyone for assistance...

I always make it thru...and Life...is once again something....

I fuckin Love.

oh...and there are like..a plethora of things I fuckin love that I have not stated...maybe that will be a part 2 or 5. haha.

ciao.

YOU!!!!!

What do you really know about...you?  You sure you know all you know?  Or..are there parts of you..you do not know..cause you refuse to know..that part of you.

Are you really that cool?  or...Are you Cooler..or maybe...not so cool?  And..if you're going  by what your friends say...

They could be lying.  Like...when they see you with snot in your nose and don't tell you...how can you really trust them when they say...you're cool?

Oh...and do I need to get on the sex thing?  Are you as good as you think you are?  Is it really...da bomb?  Are your skills...masterful...or just...tolerable???

Cause...if you're going of what folks told you...it might not be true.  They might be treating you like that soloist at church that totally screwed the hell out of Amazing Grace but...after Service...everyone goes up to them and says...

"you sho sang out your soul. I was truly blessed."

Lie!!!

Know you.

Know the good and bad.

Know your limits.

Accept that....other you...you tend to hide away.

Don't change you..or deny who you are.

If folks can't feel you.

If folks don't understand you.

If folks can't see...the you that you are.

Fuck em.

and ....

Fuck em in the way....only you...can do.

haha.

cause....

Its all about you...

that is...

if you know...who You...are.

I DON'T WEAR A CAPE

I ain't Superman. The Hulk. A piece of Granite. A Rock.

I'm a fuckin Man and believe it or not.... I have My bad days.  I have shit in My life.  I have moments that I wanna fuckin give up.

Maybe its because I rarely show that side...

But best believe...I am no different from the next person.

So....when I do blog on My feelings...it amazes Me how folks can just tell Me to .... do this or do that...when ya know damn well...it ain't that fuckin easy.  Just like they go thru shit...they trip off shit. ...they  have sleepless nights or moments of doubt....

So do I.

And...if someone does screw Me or do Me wrong...it ain't that easy to just...dismiss them. 

If there is a situation in My life that's crazy...its not that easy to just....get over it.

Like..back when My Father passed...all those folks saying .."its gonna be alright"...but they hadn't lost a Parent...so...how the fuck can they even say that??? It didn't get..alright.  It still isn't...alright.  My Father is Dead...soooo...It will never ever be...alright.

99% of the time I'm Mr. Inspiration. Mr. Happy. Mr...you can come to Me for advice and I'm there for ya.  Mr. always gotta smile and a good word.

Well...there is that 1% where I....go thru moments of doubt and pain and I have to deal with bullshit in My life.

And usually...I keep that shit to Myself..

but when I do blog or speak on it...

that's because...its become so hard to deal with...I need a outlet.

And right now.....

I'm like.....

really fucked up in the head.

no matter how I try to....think positive and be strong and....let this go...and....see the bright side....

I still think about the situation at hand....

and I get scared. I get nervous. I get.......depressed.

cause....

I'm fuckin human.

and I can't help it.

thats how it is.

I ain't Superman

and...

I don't wear a cape.

THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON.

I just sat here and wrote a long ass blog. Describing damn near every fuckin thought in My head.  I even...confessed feelings for someone in My life.  I mean...I spoke..straight from the fuckin heart..truth.

I spoke of parts of Me I haven't shared with many.

And while proofing it.

I deleted every fuckin word.

Not ready to be that naked.

I will say this;  I'm tired of doing the right thing.  Playing the game by the rules.  And...still having to fight...for peace.

I take so much shit from folks.  I've been hurt by so many..and those same folks...come back and ask for Me to forgive and us still....remain...cool.  And...I do that.  And as they talk about how they hate being treated..the exact way they treated Me....I scream inside.  And then I do...what I'm supposed to do.  Forgive...move on...and let shit go.

And just when My life is going smooth.

Here comes some bullshit.

Yeah...I'll get thru it.

but damn.

Why do I have to deal with it in the first place.

I'm on the dark side of the Moon.

dealing.

I fuckin hate.....

dealing.

THE AWAKENING OF THE SLEEPER

50 years of walkin this Earth.

Wasn't till the 45th year..did I realize My worth.

All those other years...just wasted time.

Having lots of fun...

But not fully utilizing My Mind.

Fuck em n Feed em.

Love em n Leave em.

Took Me a long time to see....

I gave a fuck about everyone...

but I didn't give a fuck about..

Me.

Then one day I stood at the river.

Looked at My reflexion...like I was gazing in a Mirror.

A Stranger with a familiar look.

A...incomplete book.

Written with inebriated hands

thoughts from a clouded Mind.

Wake Up.

Wake Up.

Its time...

Its...

Time.

50 years...I've walked this Earth.

and finally...

I know My worth.

I don't have a price tag....

If you gotta ask how much??....

ha haaaaa....

E.c. 15122011

SKY

For one year...

I lived in a shell.

A self imposed Hell.

No love?   Oh....well.

Wasn't lookin.

Wasn't thinkin.

Focus was on other thangs...

Eyes not blinkin.

Mind on some other shit.

LOVE?  Filed in that folder labeled

Please Forget.

Then one day I was looking up in the sky.

In broad daylight...something caught My eye.

It peaked My curiosity.

So...I took a deeper look..cause..this was something I had to see.

A powerful magnetic attraction.

Invaded My soul....and woke...My passion.

So...now I have hammer and chisel...

and I'm starting to remove some bricks.

But...its gonna take a while..

cause this wall...

is hella thick.

1 down.

E.c. 14122011

MARINATION TYME

Well....

Its the 13th of December and its time to stop and take a moment to...

marinate.

First of all.  Lets talk about what you "know".  You know..what you've been taught.  But...what if you haven't been taught....everything???

Even in Religion...you have the King James "Version"...and the New Age "Version".  How about making the "Original" Version available for the masses to read.  Or...are there things "they" don't want us to know.

Cause...even though we don't realize it.  We are all....slaves to those who hold the knowledge.


Just think about it.  Take EVERYTHING you know.  Everything that is available for you to research and  learn and absorb.

I guarantee you...there is a shit load more....we don't know...and won't know.

Cause if we do know....

We won't NEED....those who hold the knowledge.

And we all know... knowledge....is the ULTIMATE...Power.


See...they have become god and they...are protecting the tree of knowledge by feeding us the scraps...while they protect...the Fruit.

The technology you see now....is nothing compared to what is kept....secret.

The Need to know...information.

Oh...and check this out.  Marinate on this...and really "think" about Man's morbid curiosity for the unknown.

Ok...  We are sending probes to MARS.  I bet you a billion dollars..on one of those probes...they sent bacteria from Earth...to see if it will grow on Martian soil.

Hmmmmm.  Yeah... you know Man is sneaky like that.

We go around thinking we are sooo smart and we know this and we know that.  But...we don't see..how easy it is...to manipulate...knowledge.

Classic Case:  ADAM AND EVE AND THE APPLE.  Never ever stated in Genesis that the fruit was an apple..but to this day...folks still say it is.

Oh..and ummm...I'm not even gonna get into the Gospels...that weren't allowed...in the Bible..for..various...reasons. 

We are told we can't do certain things...but....we are also told that we can do EVERYTHING if we have faith.  So...to keep us from having such...Power.  We are told from birth..that certain things...are impossible.  Unimaginable.  And thus...we are kept....in our own lil form of bondage.

Free your mind and the rest will follow...isn't just a song people...its a truth.

And finally.

If Einstein is correct and Space/Time is indeed a "fabric" of space.

Then...it can be torn.  I can be...manipulated.  It can be...folded.

And it probably already has.

But we'll never know....

Cause ALL we Know....

is what THEY....want us to know.

Marinate.

cause this shit I just spit....

is truth.

THE....F.U...BLOG

If you are closed minded.

Judgemental.

A Bigot.

A Hypocrite.

A Hater.

A Chronic Complainer.

A Deeply Religious person who is Deeply immersed in Sin but its ok cause...you're a Deeply Religious person.

and...

A General Common Asshole...

then....

FUCK YOU!!!!!!

Fuck you up against a brick wall with a rusty pole that has jagged pieces of glass and sandpaper glued to it...and absolutely..

NO..LUBRICATION.

FUCK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY LOVING SOUL.

Signed.

Emanuel.

SUNDAY SPASMATICS

First of all...  I love..and I hate...a Hater.  I love that they admire Me so much that they "must" hate how I roll...and...I hate that they live a life...of a Hater.  Its gotta be a sad existence.

Had a excellent weekend.  Good food. Good company.  Good Sake.  Actually...some really good Sake.  Yeah....really really good. (daydreaming)

While I was out today...I noticed that damn near everyone...was on their cell phones..but no one was actually...talking.  Its like....if you could see the data streaming around that room....you wouldn't be able to see the table next to you.  God forbid all cell phones go out all at one time.  Folks would be like...Zombies.  The mere thought of actually talking to someone...would drive them...mad.

Is there really a difference between fucking...and making love?  I think...if..the fucking is done in a artistic and passionate way...its actually an evolved form of love making.  Sooooo....fucking..is love...making. hahaha

Isn't it ironic that the most popular sexual position...is taken from...Dog sex?  Yeah....marinate on that and do it doggy style. haha

I think everyone who is on Facebook should go back..and read their old posts. And...if 92% of those post are negative... then they need go get a fuckin life...and lighten the fuck up.

Welllll...thats it for this Sunday evening Blog.  I'm gonna chill out cause....My time to go be a productive citizen...is drawing nigh.  Sooooo...I'm gonna have a cup of coffee and do some more daydreaming.

Cause I can do that.

this...is the 11th day

ITS SATURDAY FOLKS.....

Its Saturday and the Blog is on weekend hours.

With that said....

I'm bout to shower.  Put on some smell good. 

Put on Me clothes.

And....

Meet a very attractive Lady....for dinner.

And even though....writing is My passion.

it really really is.

A Beautiful Lady.....

trumps the blog. hahahaha

So...tomorrow...I'll try to come up with some interesting thought and put them on screen for the masses to absorb and marinate on.

But right now.....

My Mind is on some other shit.

And this blog.....

is not on the top o the list.

hahaha

Day 10.

FOR THE YOUNG BRUTHAS

Young Bruthas

Young Bruthas

I understand you were raised by your Muthas...

Pull up yo pants...

Its time to stop that.."angry Black Man" song and dance.

What do you know bout the struggle for Civil Rights???

You can't even be a Man...and use your hands when you fight.

You wanna pick up a gun...

Shoot into a crowd..

and like a lil bitch...

you run.

Then you want to blame it on Slavery???

when its YOU who choose not to know

your Identity.

Put down the blunt

and open a book.

Read the words...

don't just....sit there and look.

You can only be respected...if you know how to respect.

And your children???

Its time to stop the neglect.

The cycle of pain...stops with you.

So tell Me young Black Man...

what are YOU gonna do?

E.c. 09122011

INSANE IN DA HEAD GAME 2011

Dat gurl head game is....

absolutely insane.

got Me shakin and moanin

and callin her name.

grabbin her head but not wanting her to stop.

but if she keeps it up???

a nigga bout to pop.

she like a Pit Bull on lock...

once she get goin...

dat gurl don't stop.

Becky ain't got shit on dis

dis some Becky wit dat

Ghetto twist.

Piston neck outa be her name...

Cause...

Dis gurl Head Game....

is Fuckin...

INSANE!!!

E.c. 08122011

DA LETTER (7TH DAY)

Dear You:

I wanted to write this letter to let you know how I feel.

How...this thing we're in...has become so real. 

I didn't take it serious at first.

Now...you are the only one to quench this thirst.

And I'm thirsty baby!

You and Your passionate ways....drives Me crazy.

I get so intoxicated when I taste your spit.

You're an addiction....I never ever want to quit.

Fuck a intervention...

oh...and did I mention..

The way you fuck Me is absolutely insane.

You are like some...sexual cocaine.

But let Me get back to the way you make Me feel inside.

Its like I'm on this roller coaster ride.

Up when I'm with you.

Down when we are apart.

You've invaded My Mind.

My Soul.

My.....Heart.

So...I wrote this letter...

just to let you know.

I've planted the seeds of trust...

and with you...I want them to grow.

Cause...I deserve to have what you're givin...

You've just added some spice to My livin.

Soooo....stay around for some years.

Lets share joy....Lets share tears.

Lets be there for each other....

when our heart feels that fear.

I wrote this letter

Cause...you needed to see.

Just how much I need you....

to be with ..

Me.

E.c. 07122011

LIFE DON'T GIVE A DAMN

The one thing I love most about Life...is that it don't give a flying shit about YOU or what YOU are going thru. 

Life....goes on.

Either you get with the program....or you get left at the station with ticket in hand.

Life don't have a rewind button.  You really can't go back and do it all over again.  Once you made that move...that move..is made.

Yeah...you can go back and apologize...or try to make things better...but a do over?

Get the fuck out of here.  It ain't happening.

Life don't care if you're innocent.  Life don't care if you're an asshole.  Life don't care if you're christian or catholic.  Life don't care if you're a genius.

Its gonna move forward....and it waits..for no Man/Woman/child/Goat/Monkey/Dog or Cat.

Now... Life does give you options.  Life does...educate.  Life shows you pros and cons.  But...

Life usually gives its lesson..."once".  Either you get it...or it gets you.

Life is wonderful.

Life is painful.

And the most oddest of all things;.....

We all wonder what lies beyond...Life...

but we don't want to lose our connection on life....to find out.

So we hang on tight...to this thing called Life...while Life....

Don't give a damn if we do...or if we don't.

Cause Life goes on.

With....

or

Without yo ass. hahahaha

day 6 of this Man's...Life in December.

SEXO de FUEGO!!! (Dia Cinco)

What is on Me mind today.  hmmmmm.

How far to the left...should I go???

or...

Should I keep it more to...the right???

((sips coffee))

Lets go.....Left...ish.

Ya know...  I kinda thought by now...My sex drive would kinda....mellow out a bit.

wrong!!!!

My sex drive is at NASCAR level...and I'm on a full tank of gas. haha

And all My little kinks???   yup...they still alive and kickin.

The one that I love the most...that...stirs my Soul like a spoon stirring coffee...is placing My hand around a neck...while I'm kissing or fuckin. 

Its something about applying pressure...where its almost too much...and not really..enough.

Oh....nelly.  That shit drives Me insane.

I also thought the length of time fuckin would diminish... 

wrong!

I still have the....  once I'm in it...I don't wanna get out of it...syndrome.

Meaning:  Good pussy don't make Me cum quick...it makes Me last....longer.

Who wants to get out some good pussy????  Good pussy should be treated like a warm pool.  Jump in that mutha and stay in till ya start lookin like a raisin. hahaha.

I thought I'd not think about sex as much.

wrong!!!

Its a daily. nay..hourly...nay.. its a by the second type thought.

I was thinking it a lot when I wasn't getting it.  I thought once I got some...I wouldn't think about it as much.

wrong!

Even when I get it...I think of it more.  Cause...I want it more.

and I...don't need no pill....to stand up to the task at hand.

I also thought certain...skills...might diminish with time.

wrong!

I can still lick a mean clit.

My tongue action...is still epic and legendary. hahaha.

I may be 50....

but My Dick...thinks he's still 25.

hahahaha.

This...is day 5.

and I'm HORNY as FUCK!!!

THE GOSPEL ACCORDING TO "E"-Book II

My eyes have seen 50 years on this Planet we call Earth.  I've seen....

John F. Kennedy assassinated.
Martin Luther King, Jr. assassinated
Robert Kennedy..assassinated

I've seen the marches for Civil Rights.

I've seen Man walk on the Moon.

I saw the very first episode of MTV...back when they played music videos ALL the time.  If you wanted to see the "REAL WORLD"...you opened your front door and stepped onto the porch.

I remember the birth of the Internet.  When profiles didn't have a pic to see.  You took folks word..on what they looked like.  And... damn near every Sista was mixed with Indian and had...good (paid for) hair. hahaha.

I remember when a Man's word...was as good as a "signed" contract.

I remember that World..before...Crack..and HIV...and...random...stupid...Violence.

I've seen times change.  People...change.  Morals...change.  Landscapes...change.  But one thing that never ever changed....

was the bullshit. hahaha.

Bullshit never changes...it does evolve..but change...it does not.

Folks been bullshittin other folks...since caveman days.

What was done to the Native Americans...bullshit.

Every form of slavery thru the years...bullshit.

Men using Magnum condoms and really..don't need to....  bullshit.

Females with fake hair...ass...tits...and makeup that makes em look all...smooth and barbie like.....bullll...shit.

Life needs a Online course in...Avoiding Bullshit 101.

Now...its 2011.  The Earth is warming up. The weather is changing drastically. Crime is up. All types of flu viruses and Salmonella outbreaks.  Home invasions. Children being killed for no reason. Everything is getting more expensive.  Marriage is at a all time LOW.  LOVE...is becoming a Myth.

And....We seem to be as happy as ever.

Now...that..is some bullshit. ahahaha.

Invitations for the Rapture haven't gone out...cause NO ONE...is ready.

Cause as much as we want the thing WE are perfect and just....

We...are just simple shells of flesh...and We...sin thru actions and.."Thoughts".  We....judge yet...wish not..to be judged.
We...point fingers...that never point back to our own selves.
We...claim our love for GOD...yet...we mistreat GOD's greatest creation.
We...think giving money to a Man..will absolved all our sins.  And in giving this money...we will become RICH..in material things which will only feed our GREED for more...and make us look down on those who are not like....Us.

While the word of GOD says....it is easier for a Camel to pass thru the eye of a needle...than a RICH man...to enter the gates of Heaven.

Riches in Heart..in Mind..in Spirit...in...GIVING.  That...is what we SHOULD..seek.

But..that's another story.

This...is the end of day 4.

Who do you see...when you look into YOUR mirror???

3 ON 4...THE MAKEUP

As usual... I missed a day in My blog a day for a Month campaign.

I got home yesterday morning.  Drank some coffee...and then...grabbed the controller and started gaming.

And if ya know Me... once that begins...and I'm playing something I'm really into....

its a wrap. 

I become engrossed in the gameplay and aside from pissing and re-hydrating....I'm totally into getting to that next level.

This....was day 3.

I took a short  break to eat.  Took a short nap...and then it was back to gaming.  And I pretty much did that till I realized I needed to cook dinner before I left out for the night. 

In other news.....

I received a text from T Mobile...  My order for My new phone has been processed and its at UPS and I was given the tracking number.  Sweeeeet.  Ok..  I did go to the website and look at the phone in detail.  It has one of the most advanced cameras on T Mobile's smart phones....and I am such a camera whore..sooo..this is a good thing.  Plus...this one has a flash....soooo....I can do some night shots without having to go into the bathroom or set up two or three lights in the bedroom just to take a pic.  And....the best of allllllll...

front facing camera...for face time chat.  Soooo now....I can do some face time with My daughter.  It won't be like she's here...but...it'll be damn close.

I saw a girl.

I talked to a girl.

I met a girl.

I talked to a girl...again.

I met a girl...again.

I kissed a girl.

I talked to a girl...again and...again.

I kissed a girl...again.

I....smelled a girl.

I tasted a girl.

I....penetrated a girl.

and I kissed a girl...again.

I broke bread with a girl.

I drank alcohol with a girl.

I licked a girl....again..and again.

I dig a girl.

I think of a girl.

I want a girl

more...and more.

All this...about a girl

cause I saw a girl

and

Talked to a girl

Fin.

And no...don't know where the fuck that came from.

I'm drinking some coffee as I do this blog

soooo....anything can pop the hell up...in My mind.

With that said....

this...is day 3....on day 4.

and I'm stickin to it.

Ciao.

THE OTHER SIDE OF THE DARK SIDE(XTREMELY EXPLICIT)

I place your legs by My ears..

penetrate you deep and take away all your fears.

Kiss you deep as you feel My dick begin to grow

Hit that spot....and make the juice flow..and flow...and............flow.

Hand full of hair....

Other hand around your neck...

Your mind so dizzy....wondering what's coming next.

The friction of Me between your thighs...

Brings moisture in your eyes..

as I take you deeper...

to the Dark Side.

You call out for God...

As I fuck you like a Demon...

Then baptise your body...

with My thick..hot...semen.

You know you can't fight what you feel..

although...you deny what you feel...

is real.

You've just taken a ride...

to the Other side...

of the...

Dark Side.

next time....buckle up!

E.c. 20111202

DAY 2 RANDOMNESS

It amazes Me how I know way more about fixing things around here..than the maintenance guys.  I tell em about a problem and what I think they should do to fix it.  They tell Me...its something else.  After everything is said and done....  I was right.  And I don't even have a degree in....asshole. haha

Christmas time is here...and ummm...sorry Jesus...but you are no longer the "reason for the season".  Hell...even Santa has taken the back seat to the New meaning of Christmas..

.....THE SALE!!!

We keep acting like we just like each other...but we both know...WE REALLY LIKE EACH OTHER. haha


I went to the grocery store cause... I was out of coffee and snack stuff and I wanted to make some spaghetti this weekend and I was OUT OF COFFEE...so  I get My stuff and I never realized I had a "transport" button in My Car...cause next thing I knew... I was at Gamestop.  And...well...since I was sitting in front of the building...I might as well...go in and just look around.  How I ended up walking out with a game in a bag....is beyond My mortal comprehension.

I like it when we kiss and cuddle...almost as much as when we cuddle and kiss.

Just got My text confirmation that My new phone will be here by 12/7.   I can't believe I had to stab Satan in the balls...and piss on his camp fire....just to get some justice from T Mobile.

Does anyone still own a Waterbed?  Cause....sexin in that contraption was like trying to thread a needle while staying afloat in the Ocean.

and finally....

If I know I'm insane...that means I'm smart enough to recognize My insanity. Sooo...I may be insane..but I'm SMART.  (gonna tweet that) haha

DAY ONE OF THE LAST MONTH

The first day of the last month of the year. 

Wow!!

I've always said....if you have advanced...at least...a inch from last year this time...to now...  you...have made progress.

This has been one crazy ass year. 2011...has got to go down in My personal history as the year My faith and soul have been tested.

And GOD has rewarded Me for holding strong to both faith and soul.

Soooo....here I am.  Day 1 of the last Month of the year.

My faith is stronger.

My soul...is deeper.

And...I'm ready...to end this year strong...and take on what is to come..in 2012.

If.....I am allowed to see that land.

This...is day one.

E.

EVERY FK'N DAY

I think about you every fuckin day.

and when I hear your voice....

my heart wants to say...

I once doubted..

but now I believe

and I'll cease to beat...

if you ever decided to leave.

My eyes would begin to tear...

My body would tremble in fear...

If I were to reach for you...

and you weren't near.

You are more than words can speak.

You are that priceless artifact that Wise Men
seek.

So much my heart wants to say..

but for now...I'll just tell you...

I think about you every Fuckin Day.

E.c. 20113011

CEREBRAL REGURGITATION I

I've been single now for well over a year and a half..ish..give or take a few months.  And...I've come to realize that "culturally"...the dating scene is way different here in GA than in CA.  And...I'm not willing...or able...to adjust to the GA process.  More so...not willing.   Funny thing is;  I have quite a few Ex's that would love for Us to...make another go at a relationship but with "some"...the sting...is still felt.  Kinda like...having a nice home that catches on fire. Sure..you can rebuild using some of the old material...but its still gonna have that..."odd smell" about it.  haha

I think a lot of folks that give themselves to GOD yet..again...expect for all the bullshit in their lives to instantly go away....just because they are now...reborn.  Welll...you may be reborn in spirit...but this ole world??? yeah...it hasn't changed and it really don't give a flying shit...about you.  Just because you embrace GOD yet..again...don't mean the World won't get all up in that ass.  haha

Last Friday I had a lunch date with an acquaintance...and half way into the meal... I wanted to like...do her on the table with everyone watching. 

Still...no flying cars.

A scientist said that Angels can't have wings as shown in most paintings because wings in that position on the body will not promote lift and also..the human body is far too heavy for wings to cause flight.  Ummmm....HELLOOOOO...these are ANGELS.  Human logic does not apply ass wipe.  I tell ya...Man can be sooooo...one dimensional in his thinking.

I've been living by Myself for so long...I don't think I can share My surroundings with someone for more than 4 days before I'll want to strangle them in their sleep.  My.."space" has become...My security blanket.

If I were to enter into a relationship...more folks would be against it..than for it.  I know...thats some crazy shit.

Every day...hundreds and hundreds of folks die. I wonder if you have to wait in a long ass line to get past the gates of heaven?  Take a number?  Will you get into trouble if you...cut in line?  What if...you have to pee.  Can you leave the line and get back into your original place? 

Its easy to have random, meaningless sex.  Its hard to find the 'RIGHT' random, meaningless sex. 

And finally.....

2012 is a comin.  Now...either all this hoopla is about nothing...or....some crazy shit is about to jump off.  Either way....I wanna be fuckin on the eve...of the day...of destruction. haha.

Fin