3 ON 4...THE MAKEUP

As usual... I missed a day in My blog a day for a Month campaign.

I got home yesterday morning.  Drank some coffee...and then...grabbed the controller and started gaming.

And if ya know Me... once that begins...and I'm playing something I'm really into....

its a wrap. 

I become engrossed in the gameplay and aside from pissing and re-hydrating....I'm totally into getting to that next level.

This....was day 3.

I took a short  break to eat.  Took a short nap...and then it was back to gaming.  And I pretty much did that till I realized I needed to cook dinner before I left out for the night. 

In other news.....

I received a text from T Mobile...  My order for My new phone has been processed and its at UPS and I was given the tracking number.  Sweeeeet.  Ok..  I did go to the website and look at the phone in detail.  It has one of the most advanced cameras on T Mobile's smart phones....and I am such a camera whore..sooo..this is a good thing.  Plus...this one has a flash....soooo....I can do some night shots without having to go into the bathroom or set up two or three lights in the bedroom just to take a pic.  And....the best of allllllll...

front facing camera...for face time chat.  Soooo now....I can do some face time with My daughter.  It won't be like she's here...but...it'll be damn close.

I saw a girl.

I talked to a girl.

I met a girl.

I talked to a girl...again.

I met a girl...again.

I kissed a girl.

I talked to a girl...again and...again.

I kissed a girl...again.

I....smelled a girl.

I tasted a girl.

I....penetrated a girl.

and I kissed a girl...again.

I broke bread with a girl.

I drank alcohol with a girl.

I licked a girl....again..and again.

I dig a girl.

I think of a girl.

I want a girl

more...and more.

All this...about a girl

cause I saw a girl

and

Talked to a girl

Fin.

And no...don't know where the fuck that came from.

I'm drinking some coffee as I do this blog

soooo....anything can pop the hell up...in My mind.

With that said....

this...is day 3....on day 4.

and I'm stickin to it.

Ciao.

THE OTHER SIDE OF THE DARK SIDE(XTREMELY EXPLICIT)

I place your legs by My ears..

penetrate you deep and take away all your fears.

Kiss you deep as you feel My dick begin to grow

Hit that spot....and make the juice flow..and flow...and............flow.

Hand full of hair....

Other hand around your neck...

Your mind so dizzy....wondering what's coming next.

The friction of Me between your thighs...

Brings moisture in your eyes..

as I take you deeper...

to the Dark Side.

You call out for God...

As I fuck you like a Demon...

Then baptise your body...

with My thick..hot...semen.

You know you can't fight what you feel..

although...you deny what you feel...

is real.

You've just taken a ride...

to the Other side...

of the...

Dark Side.

next time....buckle up!

E.c. 20111202

DAY 2 RANDOMNESS

It amazes Me how I know way more about fixing things around here..than the maintenance guys.  I tell em about a problem and what I think they should do to fix it.  They tell Me...its something else.  After everything is said and done....  I was right.  And I don't even have a degree in....asshole. haha

Christmas time is here...and ummm...sorry Jesus...but you are no longer the "reason for the season".  Hell...even Santa has taken the back seat to the New meaning of Christmas..

.....THE SALE!!!

We keep acting like we just like each other...but we both know...WE REALLY LIKE EACH OTHER. haha


I went to the grocery store cause... I was out of coffee and snack stuff and I wanted to make some spaghetti this weekend and I was OUT OF COFFEE...so  I get My stuff and I never realized I had a "transport" button in My Car...cause next thing I knew... I was at Gamestop.  And...well...since I was sitting in front of the building...I might as well...go in and just look around.  How I ended up walking out with a game in a bag....is beyond My mortal comprehension.

I like it when we kiss and cuddle...almost as much as when we cuddle and kiss.

Just got My text confirmation that My new phone will be here by 12/7.   I can't believe I had to stab Satan in the balls...and piss on his camp fire....just to get some justice from T Mobile.

Does anyone still own a Waterbed?  Cause....sexin in that contraption was like trying to thread a needle while staying afloat in the Ocean.

and finally....

If I know I'm insane...that means I'm smart enough to recognize My insanity. Sooo...I may be insane..but I'm SMART.  (gonna tweet that) haha

DAY ONE OF THE LAST MONTH

The first day of the last month of the year. 

Wow!!

I've always said....if you have advanced...at least...a inch from last year this time...to now...  you...have made progress.

This has been one crazy ass year. 2011...has got to go down in My personal history as the year My faith and soul have been tested.

And GOD has rewarded Me for holding strong to both faith and soul.

Soooo....here I am.  Day 1 of the last Month of the year.

My faith is stronger.

My soul...is deeper.

And...I'm ready...to end this year strong...and take on what is to come..in 2012.

If.....I am allowed to see that land.

This...is day one.

E.

EVERY FK'N DAY

I think about you every fuckin day.

and when I hear your voice....

my heart wants to say...

I once doubted..

but now I believe

and I'll cease to beat...

if you ever decided to leave.

My eyes would begin to tear...

My body would tremble in fear...

If I were to reach for you...

and you weren't near.

You are more than words can speak.

You are that priceless artifact that Wise Men
seek.

So much my heart wants to say..

but for now...I'll just tell you...

I think about you every Fuckin Day.

E.c. 20113011

CEREBRAL REGURGITATION I

I've been single now for well over a year and a half..ish..give or take a few months.  And...I've come to realize that "culturally"...the dating scene is way different here in GA than in CA.  And...I'm not willing...or able...to adjust to the GA process.  More so...not willing.   Funny thing is;  I have quite a few Ex's that would love for Us to...make another go at a relationship but with "some"...the sting...is still felt.  Kinda like...having a nice home that catches on fire. Sure..you can rebuild using some of the old material...but its still gonna have that..."odd smell" about it.  haha

I think a lot of folks that give themselves to GOD yet..again...expect for all the bullshit in their lives to instantly go away....just because they are now...reborn.  Welll...you may be reborn in spirit...but this ole world??? yeah...it hasn't changed and it really don't give a flying shit...about you.  Just because you embrace GOD yet..again...don't mean the World won't get all up in that ass.  haha

Last Friday I had a lunch date with an acquaintance...and half way into the meal... I wanted to like...do her on the table with everyone watching. 

Still...no flying cars.

A scientist said that Angels can't have wings as shown in most paintings because wings in that position on the body will not promote lift and also..the human body is far too heavy for wings to cause flight.  Ummmm....HELLOOOOO...these are ANGELS.  Human logic does not apply ass wipe.  I tell ya...Man can be sooooo...one dimensional in his thinking.

I've been living by Myself for so long...I don't think I can share My surroundings with someone for more than 4 days before I'll want to strangle them in their sleep.  My.."space" has become...My security blanket.

If I were to enter into a relationship...more folks would be against it..than for it.  I know...thats some crazy shit.

Every day...hundreds and hundreds of folks die. I wonder if you have to wait in a long ass line to get past the gates of heaven?  Take a number?  Will you get into trouble if you...cut in line?  What if...you have to pee.  Can you leave the line and get back into your original place? 

Its easy to have random, meaningless sex.  Its hard to find the 'RIGHT' random, meaningless sex. 

And finally.....

2012 is a comin.  Now...either all this hoopla is about nothing...or....some crazy shit is about to jump off.  Either way....I wanna be fuckin on the eve...of the day...of destruction. haha.

Fin

THE PATH OF JOB

I often identify Myself with Job.  If there is someone who doesn't know the story, Job..was a faithful servant of God and God allowed Satan...to curse Job to see if Job..would curse God (in a nut shell). 

Job had it all.  Wealth, Land, a Large loving family...Good health.  Over many years....Satan..took all that away from Job.  Even...covering Job's body with sores and boils.  And thru all that misery and pain and loss...Job never cursed God.  "The Lord Giveth...The Lord Taketh away..Blessed be the Name of the Lord."

And when it was all over.. God Blessed Job with more..that was taken away. 

Well...I was having a life of luxury. I wanted for nothing.  I was carefree.  Then...one day in 2000, it all changed.  I had moved back to My hometown of Oakland, CA.  I was working a dream job with Charles Schwab Investments.  I was making plans on settling in...and doin big thangs. 

Then....

I wake up one morning...and I can't put any pressure on My left foot.  I'm talking...major pain.  I'm on crutches for 8 months and no one can tell Me what's going on with My foot.  My truck was a stick..so pressing the clutch..was beyond painful.  I had to take BART to San Francisco on crutches and a cam walker boot.  It was difficult to say the least...but I held strong.

Then...it got worse.  I missed more days from work.  And...contrary to popular belief...if you can't make rent..compassion...is not in the landlords vocabulary. Soo...I'm about to lose..a lot.

And..I end up staying with someone I thought..was being genuine in helping..but they had another agenda.

Then...I find I have..Charcot–Marie–Tooth disease. Despite the name...its an affliction of the foot.  I was told I wouldn't walk normal again.  I'd forever need a Cane or Walker.  And...I eventually..was confined to a Wheelchair for 5.5 months. ( It was then I found out streets weren't level...and folks don't give a shit about you being in a wheelchair when trying to cross the street)

I kinda sunk into depression...but I never...NEVER blamed God for My situation.  Then one day...I got up from that wheelchair.  I got a jump for My truck..and I got out..and I started to push Myself.  I wasn't gonna let this situation beat Me.

And...from 2001..till 2010, I beat the odds.  Hell..once I moved here to GA...I even joined a Softball team and...I kinda sorta half ass ran. (which...was NOT supposed to be a reality).  Soooo..again..Life is good.  I'm making a good comeback...

and then....  2010....the same foot...acts up again. This time...so bad..two surgeries are needed.  And from that...another downward spiral.  4 Doctors said I should have the foot amputated...its gonna be a long painful life if I don't.

And...for a minute...I planned on doing so. But..something happend...and it didn't go down. 

Again.. can't work.  Again...pain.  Pain so bad...I'd sit up at night..and cry.  I even ... one night..prayed to go to sleep and not wake up.  But...I never...EVER...blamed God.

My income was cut substantially.  I had to go from...go out and buy when I wanted...to...budget and get the "wants"...when I can..if I can.  I had to deal with the fact that I may...lose My foot.

But..to see Me...to talk to Me...you'd never...ever...know it.  Cause...I never...Complained.

I went thru it.

I dealt with it.

I...prayed.

I...accepted that this..is the will of God.

Only persons who knew how bad it was...was My Brother and Sister in Law.  Otherwise...no one knew..the pain I was going thru.

Then...just as I got used to the pain.  The limping. The swollen ankle. 

It went away.  The swelling..got a lil better.

I was walking almost as normal..as I was..prior to the surgery.

Then...the financial situation .... got better.  A...LOT..better.

And yes..there are days when it flairs up...but it is in NO WAY..like it was.

Again...  I beat the odds.  I beat..the Doctors.

And...I'm thankful.

Cause...God...blessed Me...cause I never...complained to Him...for what He allowed Me to go thru.

So..it pains Me..It boggles My mind..when I read. When I hear...people complain about little things. 

If you can run.. Skip.  If you have food..any type of food in your house. Hell..if you have a HOUSE...no matter what the condition is.  If you have health...can see..can breathe normally.  If you have One Dollar on you right now.

SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!

YOU..are blessed.

Sometimes folks wonder why they can't get from under the storm...its because you keep complaining about the storm.

If God puts you thru something.

Its for a reason.

From My experiences..

I am sooooo...much more THANKFUL for what I have.

I appreciate...LIFE...as a whole.

Life is soooo precious.

Life is soooo...beautiful.

And so many bitch and complain so much...

they can't see it...or appreciate it.

We ALL...are JOB.

We ALL...walk that PATH sometimes in our Lives.

Be thankful...

GOD FEELS....YOU CAN HANDLE THE ROLE...AND THE TEST.

E.