Emanuel

I was formed....and given the breath of life from the Almighty.


I was given the knowledge of the Pharaohs.  The wisdom of Solomon...and the Strength of Samson.


I placed a Ring around Saturn and Married the Solar System.  


I've walked with Angels.


Talked with Prophets.


Traveled to the Heavens and saw Paradise.


I speak with one voice..but in Many tongues.


I am magnificent.


I am amazing.

I am the light in the eye of GOD.


I am all these things and so much more....


So...


I deserve sooo much more.


To settle for less...


Would make Me less...


that what GOD has made Me.


And this....


is the truth.


E.

NOCTURNAL DAYLIGHT

Esoteric Dreams of things...so real it seems.. to be drawn by invisible hands on ghostly canvas.


Visions of kisses and laughter never felt and never heard...but somehow...the imprint is stained on the fragile layer of the Hearts skin.


Wanting what is...but receiving what was. And neither satisfies the hunger that the soul desires...


Looking into eyes that show love...but their lips speak otherwise.  Is there truth..within the lies.


Or is all this.....around Me a...disguise.


A shapeless entity taken Human form, dancing on the strings of My emotions and filling My mind with intoxicating music of illusions.


And...I dance.


And...I dance.


I dance with the Devil...to the sounds of Angelic tunes.  Spinning freely and wildly around the room....


Till all around Me is nothing but a blur. 


And blackness fills the room as if God blew out the candle of My Cerebral visions and I stand in the midst of My own self....


Folding the fabric of space..and time...


Reconnecting with My mind.


No longer there.


But not quite here.


Esoteric Dreams...


of what never was....


but I touched it....


I felt it...


because its branded in My...Soul.


E.c  27012012

KNOWING

Knowing and not knowing...is a crazy thing to know.  And what's more crazier..is that I know..but I don't really know because even though I know... I can't say I know, cause...I what I know isn't from knowing..its from knowledge.


See.. knowledge is knowing without being told you know.  So..you really don't know..but you do know..thru knowledge.


And I...have knowledge.


So...you don't have to tell Me I know..and I really don't have to know...cause I know...from the knowledge..I know.


Cause...life...its consists of patterns.  Day turns to Night. Night turns to Day. Noon is always at Noon and Midnight is always at Midnight.  


And when these patterns suddenly change....when...Noon comes at 12:05 and Midnight comes at 12:10, when Things that were..are things that aren't....


You don't have to be told you know..the difference. You don't have to know...you know there is a difference.  Knowledge..will show you..there is a difference. Therefore..knowledge...is the knowing.


And right now... I'm knowing.  And what I know...I know...cause...Knowledge tells Me so.


So...although I'm knowing..that I don't know...  I know..cause knowledge tells Me so.


Ya know?

ONE DAY..SOME DAY

One day...and I  do not know when...  This life will end...and a new..will begin.  I will cross over...to a place never seen by Human eyes.  A place I yearn for..yet fear..and I don't know why.  Maybe it's the unknown.  Maybe it 's the thought of being all alone.  Wondering in a space...a unfamiliar place. Searching.  Searching for the Light...to guide Me.


Or will it all...be....Dark.


One day..and I don't know when.  I will have to stand accountable...for all My sins.  All the things I did...and never had a second thought.  Thing I did..and never got caught.  


Now..I'll have to own up to it all.


When I hear that call.


And see My last Sunset or Sunrise.  When I will forever close My eyes.  As My Soul lifts to the sky...


This life....  it will end.


My new life... it will begin.


One day.


Some day.


But not...to day.


E.c. 20122612

T.l.E.o.A.v.R.e.S. (Tears of Love.)

Tears...


Fall like rain.  But not from pain.  


Tears...


I have shed for so many years.


Heavy is the load I must bear.  It takes so much...to love..to care.  But this is what GOD has charged Me to do.


To take a dark cloudy day...and make it sunny and blue.  To absorb the negative..and replace it with the positive.


Both loved and hated..


Always Underrated.  


But I love anyway.  I loved yesterday..and I'll love today.


Tears...flow like...the rapids of a river.


When I look at this world...I begin to shiver.


Where is that love for one another.  That Mother love...that love for Sister and Brother.


It would be best to drink a poison potion...
than to show....emotion.


When did Love become a weakness.


When did Love become a Myth.


How did we forget...


Love..is a gift.


As I stand on the frontline...I'm a easy target.


But I'll fight for Love...cause We should never forget.


Love...is a part of the soul.


A living...entity


Tears...


I wish you could see...


These Tears are for you...


and not....


for Me.


E.c. 20120125

DEAR DIARY (THE THROWBACK)

Dear Diary,


I had such a awesome weekend.  I went to see Red Tails with My friends. She's sooo fuckin awesome.  We have this.. like..Romantic Comedy type relationship...


like..you know... if she wasn't like..My friend...she'd be like..the perfect girlfriend.


She's soooo awesome and cute and smart. And she doesn't know..but sometimes when we are out and she gets up to go to the potty...   


I smell her seat.  Geeee...she smells good too. hehe.


Soooo...Red Tails was like...this totally cool movie about Black Pilots back during WWII.  I think they did a really good job making the movies.  Terrance Howard should get a nomination for his acting.  He's sooo intense.


Today.. I went to Gamestop.  I was only going to get one game but they had this buy 2 get one free thingy going on so...I ended up coming home with 3 games.  I'm so stoked.  I haven't played any of them yet cause when I got home...I kinda fell asleep.


Its really been a nice weekend.  Lots of fun and no stress.  And that..is a good thing.


Well Diary... I guess I better go.  I'm hungry and don't really know what I want to fix to eat.


later gater.

A FUCK...I DON'T GIVE(A joint...joint.) Jul 28, '08 11:18 AM

I don't give a fuck about what you think.


I don't give a fuck..if your shit don't stink


I don't give a fuck that one plus one equals two....


I don't give a fuck about me....
so ya know...
I don't give a fuck about you.



I don't give a fuck about all the shit on the news


I don't give a fuck about your political views


but I do give a fuck about good
Jazz


and good Blues.


So...I guess I do...give a fuck.



I don't give a fuck about gossip'n hoes


I don't give a fuck about wearing "popular" clothes.


I wonder what happened...to the Counting Crows....


oh...I'm talking bout not givin a fuck. haha.



I don't give a fuck about a Fat or a Skinny Bitch.


I don't give a fuck about those..who make my balls itch.


I got love for the Poor....
and Fuck...the Rich.


Cause..I...don't give a fuck.



I don't give a fuck about Baby Mommies


I don't give a fuck if you shave your punany


But I do give a fuck...about making...money.


Sooooo....I guess.....I can...give a fuck.



I dont' give a fuck if you do...or don't tell.


I don't give a fuck about going to Hell.


What the fuck is the difference....
between a Motel....and a Hotel???


The answer to that???
I don't give a fuck.



I don't give a fuck if you like what I write.


I don't give a fuck....if you think I'm wrong...
when I "know"...I'm right.


Fuck with me..at the wrong time of day..or..night...


and I'm on the next flight.


And you'll know...just how much...
I
don't


give


a


Fuck.




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